Okayyyy, right, I have been totally dead here for about 3 months and I think it's kinda time I explained why
Truth is, I've been depressed. Day to day, I appeared happy to most but I have felt so shit underneath. School stressed me out to the very end of my limits (and almost broke me) and I was coming home feeling so tired I'd just sleep. I struggled to do school work, let alone art work or writing.
And who's fault was that? My media teacher. To say I don't like her is a serious understatement. Nothing I did was good enough for her, absolutely nothing. She gave me nothing but criticism and unhelpful advice that was either so vague I had no idea what she was on about or so obvious I was planning on doing it anyway. Then, she marked my essay down for stupid reasons like it was a few words over the limit and I didn't have page numbers. She also told me I was too hard on myself and I should 'celebrate' when she gave me a B as that's apparently a really great thing for an A grade student to get?! I ended up getting so pissed off at her and stressed I cried in front of her. And her reaction? Say she was going to phone my parents as she was "worried" about me -_- Stupid fucking bitch.
i am going to get this sorted, however, and refuse to let her mark my coursework any longer.
The uni course I thought I wanted to do too turned out to be not quite my thing. I could do it, but I feel I would get bored. So I've had a small 'midlife' crisis, adding to the depression. I have found an Animation one, however, which seems much more my thing
So, sorry for not replying to things. Depression and stress because of that bitch got me bad and I just could not bring myself to do anything
I couldn't even get up some days it was so bad and I just knew I'd cry if I went to school. I haven't been this depressed since Christo went back to Australia after seeing me, and even then it didn't last 3 months.
I've still got art block in regards to Xenomorphs too, I hope it goes soon. So, no Christmas pictures, sorry.
On top of all that, I've had a mild case of Flu too, meaning I've been way to sick to do anything for the past week. It's almost totally gone now though, thank god :3
As you guys know too, I've had no laptop for 2 months, so I haven't been able to complete any digital artwork (and I have really really wanted to, believe me D: ). With a little luck, I should get one in the New Year and I'll finish all the stuff I owe people then
Some good news though :3 I got a new job at a supermarket and I get paid £6.90 an hour now I'm 18
so I'm well on my way to get to Australia (which I am planning on going to in July 2015
). Thanks to all of you who've commissioned me too, you WILL
get your pictures, I swear
Thanks to all of you who've wished me a happy birthday, I'll reply to you soon :3 also, thanks for not giving up on me all of you who've stuck with me through this, it means so much to know there are people who still care for me
sorry I haven't been able to reply to your lovely messages, my iPad has randomly deleted a many of them and is still being a bitch x3 those I still have I will though
I got some great things for my birthday and Christmas, including an adorable plush Xeno from ChristoMan
but I also got an experience day where I get to drive tanks
can't wait to do that xD
i I hope you've all had lovely Christmas', I know I have, and you all have a great new year too